Ties knots in my stomach
As his lips
Boys come and go
but your scent remains etched on my skin,
Your lips engraved onto my soul.
Pleasure ends as soon as it begins,
After which I become numb
Except for the pain, it comes
In waves, crashing into me
On the nights
when I have no one to hold
No anchors to keep me from sinking
and I lay cold
until the morning.
Engulfed by your memory.
Between feeling completely empty
And drowning in emotionality.
On the bad days
Sentiments dissipate into numbness
I become a floating, barren body.
On the worst days
My mind is bleeding memories
I recollect his arms enveloping me
I cannot untangle myself from his vines…
But when he finally set me free
I left a piece of my soul behind.
He was red, she was green
Fire and ice, with no in between.
His desire for control
enveloped her whole,
and her willingness to give
made him easy to forgive.
But he clenched on so tightly
when she tried to explore freedom,
she could not breathe,
but detested the idea of losing him.
Until one day, his light turned blue
Engulfed with rage, his eyes an eerie hue
She sustained scars so deep
Time could not be a tourniquet.
The intensity of his silhouette
Awakened her in her sleep.
So, she knew she had to let him go
and take a path he could not follow.
From her kind green, she became selfish black
Seeking liberty, never looking back.